I think what makes me the most happy and satisfied is being able to make lists of interesting information, so this is really scratching that itch. Uploaded a list of my zines and it's very satisfying to see everything laid out so well. Perhaps it isn't as punchy or attention grabbing as when I make graphics on twitter or whatever but I like the certainty of having information in a single place, to make it easier for people searching for info, but also so that I can easily link back to it when talking to people and sharing my info. It also makes me realize how much many of the platforms I used to share my zines on–on gumroad, tumblr, deviantart, etc- are mostly gone, either deleted (like my tumblr was), become enshittified or irrelevant (like gumroad and deviantart), or simply aren't performing as well. Ah well.. it's nice to see the product of my hard work (?) after so many years.
My goal so far when it comes to comics now and next year are fairly modest... I want to work more on Devilsburger, and make it an actual zine or webcomic. It's a bit ambitious for me given my track record of long-ish projects but I really want it to get done. I am also currently working on a pitch for the Newberry Medieval Minicomic Award, which I want so badly that I feel like I kind of need to play it cool and not tell people about it so that I can concentrate on getting it done, and so I don't feel too devastated if I get rejected. I also have a desire to apply to that Alaska Comics Retreat for next May, which is something I also remember wanting to do back in the day...but I'm almost 30 and like, an adult, and even though I still dont have like a "job" job right now (lol) I feel like I could really do well there..
Speaking of Jobs, I feel like in the meantime while I'm sitting here (mostly) unemployed, I want to also make a site to compile the info I gathered while I was a student to maybe help with study material. Also, interesting things about Radiology. Will it ultimately be helpful to get employment? I don't know... The thing I need most now is Experience. I'm waiting on a return call from a promising place, but it's all very wearying. But I always love having A Project to do especially if the project involves Information. Maybe I got into the wrong field for this :/ but at least I want to maybe find a way to satisfy myself. Being an information-lister I suppose is kind of depressing in the age of AI rote generating info for people all the time. And that's why I wanted to get into work that heavily relies on human interaction and human contact. But this is what I like to do!
Trying to balance who I am as a person, what I like, and what is good for me is all very frustrating and probably a reason why I like to rely on projects and artistic stuff to keep me occupied, it keeps me from getting too caught up in my own spirals.
Anyways, speaking of the physical world, there are still ANTS in my KITCHEN that need to be taken care of... the accursed Myrmidons invading my land... yesterday I bought some terro and baking soda to try and deter them and cleaned out the spots i tought were attracting them, but they seem to be hiding behind the fridge. UGH I hate bugs! I understand their biological function and role in the world and admire the work ethic, but they have GOT to GO!!